Red Rot ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- we lived in a tower, two birds in white dresses before they shot us i had such a weird dream last night and all of the good guys died first i was a man in black suit on the 11th floor of an office building. it might have been a library, and my back was too a locked door and my right side was too a window and i was ducked down, pressed against an aisle shooting a gun at 3 men on varying sides of me and i stopped shooting and they kept closing in and i couldnt figure out why i wasnt knocking them off. i tried breaking through the window but i wasnt strong enough and i would have just fallen but they kept closing in and when i looked down at my hand i didnt have a gun anymore, just two fingers that pretended to shoot all three of them at once and i thought i guess this is it while the man on my right said we cant spare him they wont spare us and i closed my eyes and i zoomed out and saw myself face down but i wasnt that man anymore and i dont remember his name, although i heard it im not sure who i was at this point. i just know that i was part of a team and we had just lost that man in the suit/ and then i was a blonde woman practicing for my "assignment," and i kept diving into this bathtub-looking basin in the middle of a dark room. it was full of sand and water and everytime i submerged i started tunneling and it felt like i was getting somewhere and i didnt need to breathe but he someone told me i was needed for something else and i left and never found out what i actually did i just became two girls in a tower and i think we were sisters and it felt tense, not between us, just tense like something was about to happen. and i wanted to change my clothes because i felt like we needed to run but i was wearing a slip with a million ruffles and it didnt seem right and i couldnt tuck it into anything so i gave up. it didnt make sense that we were dressed up but we were and i knew that our identity had something to do with birds and that they were looking for us. my sister yelled something and suddenly they were on the tower, surrounding the balcony of the tower, soldier-looking men in green. and she told me to run upstairs and load the gun, the only weapon we had, resting in a box on a wooden table. so hurried up some spiral stairs to an attic room that i hadnt noticed and when i came down i knew that we were outnumbered and i kept looking for ways to get out (and i considered flying ...dont ask me how this makes sense? but i thought we would be shot down mid-flight) and while i considered our options she said we would fight and headed for the window and i knew that that was that and we would lose but they would lose a lot in taking us frequently i have such complicated dreams that i cannot connect the subtleties and i wonder why im never myself and why i died so many times last night fulfilling a mission i never figured out 1:06 p.m. - 2006-04-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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