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La V asked me if i was really that sensitive?

and i couldnt answer because i couldnt stop crying

and i am praying to be tougher,

because
its embarrassing to not be able to hold back, and
its embarrassing to bawl, and
its embarrassing to not be able to stop

she said they used to say to her god sister, you better stop before i give you something to cry about

my dad used to say that

and it never helped. it just made me choke and shake trying to stop.

ive got to be tougher. so much tougher. im grown up now? right?

so why does everything cut me like a child?????????

im going to swallow this and never talk about it again

11:10 p.m. - 2006-05-13

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