cannet's Diaryland Diary

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2020-06-01 - For George Floyd
2020-05-12 - This kitchen
2020-03-29 - Inside
2020-02-22 - Small net
2020-02-15 - Proximity to hell
2020-02-09 - Dampener
2020-02-03 - Boss sob (Near palindrome)
2020-01-26 - New week
2020-01-25 - Potential
2020-01-20 - Puritan youth
2019-01-04 - The cylinder and the pyramid
2017-07-22 - To the hustle.
2017-05-14 - -
2017-05-14 - -
2017-03-05 - -
2017-03-05 - How can you be both tough and nice?
2017-03-01 - -
2016-12-06 - -
2016-12-05 - -
2016-11-21 - on discovering you're square
2016-10-23 - -
2016-10-23 - -
2016-02-01 - -
2015-09-10 - -
2014-12-11 - Mia Couto on becoming a writer
2014-10-23 - Eugenia Leigh on elegy (NY Botanical Garden)
2014-10-13 - David Bazan on songwriting
2014-09-19 - Thomas Lux on poetry, from Onomatomania
2014-06-26 - Dana Isokawa on Galileo
2014-06-26 - on living
2014-06-12 - -
2014-04-24 - I have the confidence of new spring
2014-04-10 - Tory Adkisson on metamorphosis
2014-03-13 - Zackary Drucker on "Relationship," an exhibition of photographs in the Whitney Bienniel
2014-03-13 - Lisa Selin Davis on a kiss
2014-02-14 - Maxine Kumin on poetry
2014-02-01 - -
2014-01-13 - Amiri Baraka from Preface to a Twenty Volume Suicide Note
2013-12-31 - Italo Calvino on reading
2013-12-29 - Visiting my parent's ward Cristina asked me where my other half was
2013-12-23 - towards self-care (repeat)
2013-12-13 - Nicholas generalizes my problem
2013-12-12 - What she misquoted
2013-12-06 - On what a man can handle
2013-12-04 - on Frank Bidart
2013-11-21 - -
2013-10-26 - Loss : space
2013-10-16 - Stephen Burt on Robert Creeley's later poems (from Poetry Foundation)
2013-08-29 - -
2013-08-07 - Aram Saroyan on reading Howl
2013-08-07 - Wallace Stevens
2013-08-05 - trouble life
2013-07-18 - Gustave Flaubert on Art
2013-07-08 - A place where I'm exhausted with my own feelings. God, let it be weeks before I think of you again.
2013-06-24 - Verlyn Klinkenborg on writing
2013-06-20 - Talk me out
2013-06-13 - To all my friends, may you have everything you want and need
2013-06-07 - irony & truth
2013-06-06 - sitting on the steps eating watermelon with Eric
2013-06-04 - on ending
2013-06-04 - Marina Keegan on the opposite of loneliness
2013-05-29 - on depression
2013-05-14 - broody, serious, gorgeous, unstable
2013-05-14 - Alain de Botton on sex
2013-05-11 - on what David Foster Wallace would call the "terrible master"
2013-05-10 - Sherwood Anderson on art
2013-05-10 - Maya Angelou on reduction
2013-05-10 - -
2013-05-07 - Shame on you diaryland
2013-05-07 - Madness, Rack, and Honey
2013-05-02 - talking myself up
2013-04-25 - on being assertive and learning to own my feelings
2013-04-19 - on life
2013-04-22 - Something I should forget
2013-04-16 - John Freeman on Granta's Best of Young British Novelists
2013-04-11 - Felicity v. Ali G
2013-04-11 - watching felicity
2013-03-26 - Prayer
2013-03-21 - dollars and days
2013-03-11 - someone interpret this dream
2012-11-14 - -
2012-10-19 - -
2012-10-05 - A couple of messy thoughts on my experience with sorrow and Mormonism
2012-10-01 - ups & downs
2012-09-24 - holy shit
2012-09-19 - shame
2012-09-16 - self-narrative
2012-09-06 - Tina Chang on leaving, a line from "Duality"
2012-09-06 - Joseph Conrad as Charlie Marlow
2012-09-06 - Tina Chang from "The Future is an Animal"
2012-08-15 - Nikky Finney on why her poems are not temples
2012-08-15 - Nikky Finney on Rosa Parks
2012-08-09 - Dear Self,
2012-07-31 - Mary Jo Thompson on the passage of time
2012-07-11 - Roderick Clark on literary magazines and, possibly, life
2012-06-28 - Nora Ephron on New Journalism
2012-06-25 - new normal
2012-06-21 - new low
2012-06-12 - on what is possible
2012-06-11 - on turning 27
2012-06-08 - Matthew Zapruder on reading poetry
2012-06-08 - on surviving
2012-06-07 - Ray Bradbury on the future
2012-06-03 - The Mormon moment
2012-06-02 - Maggie Gyllenhaal on Rooney Mara
2012-05-31 - from Albert Goldbarth's "Photographs of the Interiors of Dictators' Houses"
2012-05-26 - timely
2012-05-19 - free pass summer
2012-05-19 - thinking about self-destructing
2012-05-10 - Maurice Sendak on the influence of the Lindbergh baby
2012-05-10 - Maurice Sendak on Bumble-Arby (a tribute)
2012-05-10 - Wayne Koestenbaum on humiliation
2012-05-10 - Wayne Koestenbaum on Groucho
2012-05-10 - empathetic morning
2012-05-09 - on New York
2012-05-08 - do-over
2012-05-08 - -
2012-05-05 - getting weirder
2012-05-02 - -
2012-04-27 - xo (6 years later)
2012-04-26 - Dawn Kasper on living in public
2012-04-26 - Dawn Kasper on playing David Bowie for David Bowie
2012-04-22 - Sabbath Day
2012-04-21 - I found Quinn's journal from 1993. He was 11.
2012-04-21 - i found a letter i wrote to Quinn in November 2006
2012-04-18 - -
2012-04-04 - on unrequited love
2012-04-04 - on editing
2012-04-04 - This is me giving up on us.
2012-04-04 - timely
2012-03-29 - timely
2012-03-28 - shortcut through the park
2012-03-19 - -
2012-03-18 - -
2012-03-14 - Asma al-Assad
2012-03-05 - -
2012-03-05 - on anger
2012-03-01 - two minds
2012-02-29 - on coming to a close
2012-02-29 - on distance
2012-02-24 - -
2012-02-22 - i just want to, i want to see the boy happy with some hope in his pale eyes
2012-02-21 - on desperation
2012-02-14 - 2006-2012
2012-02-14 - weird brain
2012-02-14 - valentines 2012
2012-02-13 - on sadness
2012-02-09 - Happy Birthday Maurice
2012-02-03 - on sensational narcissism
2012-02-02 - like a word that somersaults through the air and cannot be unsaid (fr. martin espada)
2012-02-01 - 1992-2012
2012-01-30 - on instinct
2012-01-26 - -
2012-01-25 - -
2012-01-09 - a memory
2012-01-08 - on feeling unresolved
2011-12-08 - TMI
2011-12-07 - my own blue nights
2011-12-07 - -
2011-11-30 - from If You Forget Me, by Pablo Neruda
2011-11-18 - kv, quoted in the nyt 5/24/99
2011-11-18 - saul bellow
2011-11-18 - novelist Wright Morris on the electric typewriter he seldom turned off
2011-11-18 - saul bellow
2011-11-11 - -
2011-09-02 - -
2011-08-17 - But if managing complex problems were easy, they wouldn't be complex, and we would still be living the straightforward but harsh lives of our progenitors.
2011-08-15 - will i never be?
2011-08-15 - dear god,
2011-08-12 - on quiet, on talking softer, on staying busy
2011-07-28 - Denis Johnson
2011-07-28 - Richard Hugo
2011-07-13 - Grace Paley (a tribute)
2011-07-09 - Cy Twombly (a tribute)
2011-05-31 - when you're gone
2011-05-13 - thoughts on today: need
2011-05-01 - -
2011-04-20 - langston hughes
2011-04-13 - quinn and i watched sherman's march on netflix
2011-04-12 - -
2011-04-08 - -
2011-04-08 - -
2011-04-07 - -
2011-04-07 - -
2011-04-07 - -
2011-04-07 - overheard conversation
2011-04-02 - D.S. Carne-Ross on Homer
2011-03-26 - if only my brain could parse this information, write this paper while i slept/they also told me art was hard
2011-03-25 - golden garden (joni mitchell's woodstock)
2011-03-25 - the reader, bernard schlink
2011-03-14 - the road
2011-03-07 - -
2011-03-01 - -
2011-02-16 - a truth
2011-02-16 - a hurdle/the body betrayed
2011-02-16 - -
2011-02-16 - horses
2011-02-16 - dear god, i have a new dream
2011-02-10 - sure i have my doubts but i know it now
2011-02-09 - -
2011-02-09 - 2000's
2010-12-03 - -
2010-11-27 - -
2010-11-27 - -
2010-11-27 - -
2010-11-27 - -
2010-11-03 - -
2010-11-03 - bad citizen
2010-11-03 - john lion
2010-11-03 - -
2010-11-03 - -
2010-10-21 - -
2010-10-21 - -
2010-10-21 - october again?
2010-10-19 - coming back
2010-10-09 - old ironsides and the real message of the navy jack
2010-10-09 - -
2010-10-09 - -
2010-10-09 - -
2010-10-09 - i dont talk well underwater, underground
2010-10-09 - -
2010-10-09 - -
2010-10-06 - babies and writing
2010-10-06 - -
2010-10-06 - weetzie, duck, dirk, and my secret agent lover man
2010-10-06 - -
2010-10-06 - oppressed and liberated
2010-10-06 - last night, before bed
2010-08-20 - stereotypes about asians: smart, well-dressed, nice legs, cute babies, first chair in the orchestra...
2010-08-20 - -
2010-08-20 - -
2010-08-03 - a change in the bones
2010-08-03 - on running again
2010-07-22 - clarity
2010-07-22 - empath
2010-07-22 - wrong
2010-07-22 - -
2010-07-22 - -
2010-07-22 - breathing in tandem
2010-06-26 - insomnia (how i was raised)
2010-06-26 - write/right anymore
2010-06-26 - an honest marriage
2010-05-15 - -
2010-05-05 - -
2010-02-18 - -
2010-02-02 - -
2010-02-02 - -
2010-02-02 - -
2010-01-30 - -
2010-01-30 - -
2010-01-29 - -
2010-01-29 - MESJ
2010-01-29 - politics
2010-01-29 - bless this mess
2010-01-29 - -
2010-01-29 - bare with me
2010-01-29 - god, it got hard to keep living when i just cant see the end of the puzzle
2010-01-29 - faking it making it
2009-08-11 - just a lot of questions to something i never came back to
2009-05-11 - -
2009-04-20 - -
2009-04-08 - henry miller
2009-02-18 - -
2009-02-18 - -
2009-02-12 - -
2009-02-06 - -
2008-12-21 - -
2008-12-21 - -
2008-11-19 - -
2008-11-19 - -
2008-11-19 - -
2008-11-12 - patience
2008-11-05 - -
2008-11-05 - -
2008-10-22 - -
2008-10-22 - -
2008-10-22 - a middle school education
2008-10-22 - whatever happened to alkaline rinnie?
2008-10-22 - -
2008-10-04 - -
2008-09-23 - (not the tv show, that should be called sad/chauvinist past)
2008-09-23 - myth of adolescence
2008-09-23 - -
2008-09-23 - History of the Church 5:387-88
2008-09-18 - a great interview in megawords magazine
2008-09-18 - yuki sohma (opening the lid)
2008-09-18 - far from the madding crowd
2008-09-18 - making love in 2008
2008-09-09 - -
2008-09-03 - black and yellow
2008-08-28 - -
2008-07-28 - -
2008-07-28 - -
2008-07-08 - -
2008-07-06 - -
2008-07-06 - -
2008-07-06 - -
2008-07-05 - -
2008-07-05 - -
2008-07-05 - -
2008-06-27 - -
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2008-06-27 - -
2008-06-26 - -
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2008-06-06 - -
2008-06-06 - -
2008-06-06 - Long thought on the in-between
2008-06-06 - -
2008-05-09 - -
2008-05-09 - -
2008-05-09 - cops to california
2008-05-09 - -
2008-05-09 - -
2008-04-13 - -
2008-04-13 - -
2008-04-13 - rupe rupe show show
2008-04-13 - -
2008-04-13 - remember that april when i was living at your parents house?
2008-04-13 - found my way back home
2008-04-13 - -
2008-04-08 - -
2008-04-08 - team america
2008-03-28 - goals for spring/summer 2008
2008-03-13 - -
2008-03-13 - -
2008-03-13 - -
2008-03-13 - 3x repeated
2008-03-02 - pastels of the past
2008-02-12 - back when i was punk as fck
2008-02-02 - -
2008-02-02 - -
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2008-02-02 - -
2008-02-02 - -
2008-01-27 - foul and profane language will rob the pattern of beauty
2008-01-25 - -
2008-01-25 - -
2008-01-10 - -
2008-01-10 - jenny han's the color purple
2008-01-10 - god's ipod
2008-01-10 - -
2007-12-12 - lee fiora
2007-12-12 - -
2007-12-12 - one day ill grow up to be a beautiful woman
2007-12-11 - -
2007-12-11 - -
2007-12-11 - -
2007-12-11 - -
2007-12-11 - -
2007-12-09 - if i were a kitty i would only meow to the cranberries: meow meow meow MEEEEEOOOWWWW, meow meow mEEOW mey-ow yow
2007-12-07 - -
2007-12-07 - scheduling my students
2007-12-07 - reminisces of an old book
2007-12-07 - -
2007-12-06 - god rest ye merry gentlemen in minor key
2007-12-06 - -
2007-12-06 - especially sexual habits!
2007-12-06 - it just wasnt in me
2007-10-25 - -
2007-10-25 - -
2007-10-25 - -
2007-10-25 - -
2007-10-18 - -
2007-10-06 - i will take that road, frost, or my own, mama day
2007-10-06 - a king's quest
2007-10-06 - for winter is a rough time indeed; its always puppy dogs and snow
2007-10-06 - a pennypinching truth from an extravagant girl
2007-10-06 - something out of nothing
2007-10-06 - rich man poor man beggar man thief
2007-09-27 - -
2007-09-27 - and maybe one day i'll grow into a beautiful girl
2007-09-27 - thin grey lines from thin gold rings
2007-09-07 - for today i am a child
2007-09-07 - though i dislike christmas music, i have a soft spot for oh holy night
2007-08-26 - -
2007-08-26 - -
2007-08-20 - but rather openly talk about
2007-08-20 - -
2007-08-20 - -
2007-08-18 - -
2007-08-18 - easy cheese and spaghettios
2007-08-18 - -
2007-08-18 - -
2007-08-18 - -
2007-08-18 - -
2007-08-06 - french, latin, greek, philosophy and subjects of the stronger sex?
2007-08-06 - -
2007-08-06 - -
2007-08-06 - everything that rises must converge
2007-08-06 - -
2007-08-06 - the diary of a favorite friend
2007-07-19 - -
2007-07-19 - i am drowning after college, but atleast not so poorly as noah baumbachs first movie
2007-07-19 - -
2007-07-15 - -
2007-07-12 - he really said this to me
2007-07-10 - 1200 am
2007-07-06 - he had a headache and i had a heartache
2007-07-05 - -
2007-07-05 - -
2007-07-05 - dr seuss wrote an adult book about naked ladies
2007-07-05 - -
2007-07-01 - -
2007-07-01 - -
2007-07-01 - brave new world
2007-07-01 - brave new world
2007-07-01 - brave new world
2007-06-27 - -
2007-06-27 - -
2007-06-27 - -
2007-06-14 - i know we arent the only ones asking (langston et. al)
2007-06-14 - i have a crush on ron weasley and quinn has a crush on veronica mars
2007-06-14 - but lee, i bet you are older too
2007-06-14 - and i am not ready for this
2007-06-05 - -
2007-05-24 - pressed in organdy, clothed in crinoline
2007-05-24 - the fire in your eyes
2007-05-21 - my thoughts as quinn (a writing excercise to help a stuck husband, and the zine continues)
2007-05-18 - i have been crying a lot lately
2007-05-18 - and i cried my heart out before amen
2007-05-09 - dustin hoffman ran away too
2007-04-21 - 3/4 dead
2007-04-14 - my sweet home mama is coming
2007-04-14 - its funny how many people quote intelligent sounding obscure writers with incomprehensible points
2007-04-12 - you have
2007-04-12 - burnt creeps/a crepe (a waffle) for cinderella
2007-04-12 - a confession: one more bead on the rosary
2007-04-11 - pre-madonna
2007-04-11 - an awakening
2007-03-29 - does it matter if you ease
2007-03-17 - -
2007-03-12 - magnetic poetry
2007-03-06 - i am comforted and satisfied
2007-03-03 - once upon a time in america
2007-02-20 - girls up the ante, amanda and tee
2007-02-17 - lock stock and two smoking barrels
2007-02-02 - bjork woos quinn and i am a dancer in the dark
2007-02-02 - it is marrow in my bones
2007-01-29 - i cant believe he said that. sociology of gender and thoughts on a conservative education
2007-01-29 - why no one wants to be my friend in class
2007-01-29 - the booberden
2007-01-25 - killing a southern belle
2007-01-21 - xo
2007-01-21 - pale white gums as the pink drains out of my face
2007-01-20 - oversexed and underfed
2007-01-19 - the snackfood baby wife of a junkie
2007-01-19 - your favorite song wyoming summer
2007-01-19 - when did i used to be cool?
2007-01-19 - funny girl
2006-12-23 - remember that evening in the living room? and chaunte and georgianna were dancing like monkeys to christmas music? beautifully like ballerinas and swing kids and slam dancers and porn stars? and i wanted to dance, but it was a bad night for
2006-12-18 - -
2006-12-18 - a tender heart
2006-12-18 - why i decided to get married
2006-12-14 - IF YOU ARE FEMALE READ THIS!
2006-12-13 - dont panic, said the man with pretty blue eyes
2006-12-09 - rachel wagoner's bfa show and a daydream of salt and pepper
2006-12-09 - would it be weird to you?
2006-12-09 - my house, 7 girls and a gingerbread man
2006-12-09 - we are the living dead, everything is shaped by society, every person is a pawn of history
2006-12-09 - a coal to the lips
2006-12-09 - dont rent it
2006-12-07 - a christmas bawl
2006-12-07 - holiday thoughts for the holiday season
2006-12-07 - i dont think we tell others about the things that are most important to us. they are never \"cool\"
2006-12-07 - she said it with her hair pulled back, another powerpoint from an english major
2006-12-07 - thoughts i drowned in the james
2006-12-07 - a funny story during the month of mikey and liz
2006-12-07 - a seizure
2006-12-07 - east side story (a ballet)
2006-12-07 - better and better again
2006-12-07 - oh sweet 19 summer, there is nothing sweeter than cute tattoos (giraffes in love)
2006-12-03 - mother christmas pays me a visit
2006-12-03 - a lesson at life on another cold sabbath
2006-12-03 - reb tevye
2006-12-01 - another sexless week
2006-11-21 - franksgiving
2006-11-20 - dear
2006-11-20 - do you know what i am talking about?
2006-11-14 - i can be your mom until i am her mom (imogen grace)
2006-11-14 - ties that bind
2006-11-10 - -
2006-11-10 - twilight, an irony
2006-11-10 - why are we attracted to what we are afraid of?
2006-11-10 - dostoevsky, happy birthday tomorrow
2006-11-08 - -
2006-11-04 - -
2006-10-24 - -
2006-10-24 - oversexed
2006-10-23 - -
2006-10-23 - a burial ground
2006-10-22 - -
2006-10-20 - fair carcosa and i am reading the king in yellow
2006-10-20 - where i nursed my ring
2006-10-19 - i spent tonight looking at chauntes photoshoots of friends
2006-10-19 - and i will piece together something you have never seen before or since
2006-10-12 - he used to make me nervous
2006-10-12 - golden the pony boy
2006-10-12 - my body is a haunted house
2006-10-09 - pumps and pumpkins
2006-10-09 - forever, just for now
2006-10-05 - like i could do more than i could
2006-10-04 - berenice
2006-10-04 - doug e doug, dyed black hair and winter 2004
2006-10-04 - lips, hips, and a million learning resources at this center
2006-10-04 - a clumsy boy and my china-doll girlfriend
2006-10-04 - and you can look at my legs when we are on the sailboat
2006-10-03 - universal gender difference
2006-10-03 - moses and a nice shirt
2006-10-03 - gael
2006-10-02 - a sad story/a sob story
2006-09-25 - i am my experiences, jack-the-bear
2006-09-25 - this is how i keep a journal
2006-09-24 - thoughts on children in gothic and the repressed past
2006-09-24 - a flight, the main theme of ecclesiastes
2006-09-24 - this is my excuse for not being your friend; the real life excuses are harder to justify. but you weren't looking for me either.
2006-09-24 - her mothers coming of age tale
2006-09-22 - -
2006-09-19 - the clinic
2006-09-19 - nineteen to twenty-one
2006-09-19 - this mystery is lonely
2006-09-19 - upsetting the lining
2006-09-19 - i am going to save my baby from the mess this life has made
2006-09-14 - blusher veils and pony tails
2006-09-12 - -
2006-09-09 - as a woman, or maybe just as a person
2006-09-09 - lollygag and faghag
2006-09-09 - a wolf with a woman and a wife
2006-09-08 - -
2006-09-08 - -
2006-09-07 - -
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2006-09-06 - -
2006-09-06 - we are going to be a great family
2006-09-06 - clothed in the robes of the false priesthood
2006-08-31 - jerusalem to america, 3 days in a car
2006-08-31 - poster girl for the past and present
2006-08-31 - dont keep your distance
2006-08-31 - he dreamed he was
2006-08-30 - he dreamed i was
2006-08-30 - real life is the new myspace
2006-08-30 - whose got it, clara bow
2006-08-30 - a rhyme
2006-08-30 - things i am scared of
2006-08-22 - -
2006-08-22 - -
2006-08-22 - -
2006-08-18 - -
2006-08-18 - oktay, octavian
2006-08-18 - a true story about birthdays
2006-08-18 - she wants to marry him because its seems fun
2006-08-18 - a story for/by quinn
2006-08-18 - mr alexander
2006-08-10 - his meat was locust and honey
2006-08-08 - i said she would, and maybe he will too
2006-08-01 - -
2006-07-28 - PFUK marries a babe and a badass
2006-07-26 - i feel like im always back and forth across the country
2006-07-26 - this will be better than the da vinci code, audrey tatou and all
2006-07-26 - this is what i imagine getting married feels like; maybe better than this
2006-07-21 - -
2006-07-19 - so-co in bed, a sunny sunday
2006-07-19 - skinny bones jones
2006-07-19 - why i like jamie jones
2006-07-17 - jj jones and another day at work
2006-07-15 - babies and futures and this questioning he started me with and left me to wonder about
2006-07-15 - big-lipped advice on conventional birth; jamie jones says the weirdest shit to me
2006-07-15 - a fortress and a baby
2006-07-15 - a truth
2006-07-14 - i am listening to teenage soundtrack music; i am giving this up
2006-07-13 - i wrote this on my birthday
2006-07-13 - toothpaste for dinner
2006-07-13 - thoughts while brushing my teeth and going to bed alone
2006-07-13 - -
2006-07-13 - -
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2006-07-13 - -
2006-07-13 - -
2006-07-13 - -
2006-07-12 - -
2006-07-12 - when i am alone and when i am not
2006-07-12 - i keep thinking about bridge to teribithia
2006-07-12 - passing time/pasttimes
2006-07-10 - he, any man, offers to protect me; a white-tooth smile and a working girl
2006-07-10 - jamie jones
2006-07-10 - i am wearing a baby blue pencil skirt and a black and red striped sweatshirt of quinns; i have curly girl bedhead
2006-07-07 - they were wrong so we drowned
2006-07-05 - but i did like that it wasnt beautiful
2006-07-05 - a palestinian/personal conflict
2006-07-01 - diaryland marries articleland; i cant sleep jane austen
2006-07-01 - i want to do things because they are hard
2006-07-01 - pretty scenes in building and breaking
2006-07-01 - speaking of herself
2006-07-01 - speaking of herself
2006-07-01 - the root of all evil
2006-07-01 - is it taking liberties to feel things in extremes?
2006-07-01 - nothing is wrong with me but i feel so crazy; a few thoughts on heightened emotional levels and depression
2006-06-30 - making babies, doing math problems
2006-06-30 - -
2006-06-29 - warm/cold professionalism
2006-06-29 - my stomach hurts like it hurts when its eating itself
2006-06-24 - i cant relate to you anymore and i wonder if you can relate to me
2006-06-24 - fulton hill, 1987-2006
2006-06-24 - everything is just working or waiting in between
2006-06-21 - i dream of genie
2006-06-21 - when we come home i shed the formality, dropping out of shoes and slips while you loosen your tie
2006-06-19 - jacqueline gorbutt
2006-06-16 - we all end up with and without each other
2006-06-16 - i feel happy right now for the first time in days
2006-06-16 - -
2006-06-15 - gelatin
2006-06-15 - pull that pink top
2006-06-15 - amnesty?
2006-06-15 - drunk as a skunk
2006-06-15 - drinking drinking drinking drinking coca coca cola
2006-06-14 - -
2006-06-14 - almond-milk
2006-06-14 - a wailing wall for a failing girl
2006-06-11 - i map kissing like electron configurations
2006-06-11 - i think god would chuckle at this entry but also think it was a downer
2006-06-11 - religion is so weird unless you believe it
2006-06-11 - angela lewis
2006-06-10 - married to the sea
2006-06-10 - scared/sacred
2006-06-10 - mitochondria
2006-06-10 - am i making this up?
2006-06-10 - i think you have to read these to understand america and while i keep reading i dont know what i will do with this besides think and live here
2006-06-10 - america ive given you all and now im nothing
2006-06-10 - howl
2006-06-10 - i love my chick
2006-06-10 - come lets do this or come lets do that: a note from mickey powers the patriarch
2006-06-09 - getting married is the new pink
2006-06-09 - we always date the people who hate our guts from the get-go
2006-06-08 - al-zarqawi
2006-06-08 - the same looks and the same sentiments!
2006-06-06 - thoughts on the star of david
2006-05-31 - in a u of u sweatshirt
2006-05-31 - nothing looks good to me and i am hot and cold at the same time
2006-05-31 - dear god
2006-05-30 - 2.000 miles is too far away to talk regularly so i decided to internalize you with everyone else
2006-05-30 - we wear the same clothes
2006-05-27 - i think i am better for tolerating less
2006-05-27 - -
2006-05-27 - ole!
2006-05-26 - grow up and get a job baby
2006-05-26 - a plate, a bowl, a fork, a spoon
2006-05-25 - he + she
2006-05-25 - last names carry implications in my imagination
2006-05-25 - -
2006-05-25 - -
2006-05-25 - -
2006-05-25 - xo
2006-05-23 - have you ever seen that AIR video where they build a girl?
2006-05-22 - -
2006-05-22 - she was a married man's mistress and taught sunday school every week
2006-05-18 - cowabunga!
2006-05-18 - these are my favorite foods
2006-05-17 - dov charney
2006-05-17 - -
2006-05-17 - i forgot i wanted to write about this
2006-05-17 - -
2006-05-17 - i cant find the end of the internet
2006-05-16 - a dentist a molder a molar A MATCH!
2006-05-16 - back in the habit back in the abbot back in the abbey? i really do miss abby boys, i really do
2006-05-16 - poppys such a funny word
2006-05-13 - why cant anyone take my word for it?
2006-05-13 - La V asked me if i was really that sensitive?
2006-05-13 - -
2006-05-13 - -
2006-05-13 - i am O positive
2006-05-13 - -
2006-05-13 - -
2006-05-11 - the outside or the inside!
2006-05-11 - everything that feels good to me pulses
2006-05-11 - everything ive thought about and cant explain and cant write down.
2006-05-02 - phyllis
2006-05-01 - red badge of courage
2006-05-01 - micheal loves you boston girlfriend, whoever you are
2006-05-01 - a rock in my heart and a rope around my neck but it still got away!
2006-05-01 - a bad salad and a true story
2006-05-01 - girl you've got something and i love how you wear it
2006-04-28 - this is a letter to all of the people who i have needed to talk to and havent talked to. somehow i pretend you will all get this, and that will be good enough
2006-04-27 - we lived in a tower, two birds in white dresses before they shot us
2006-04-27 - i know what i am embarrassed of
2006-04-27 - he would have never cut his heart out for you
2006-04-25 - back in hate-o-four
2006-04-19 - february 21, 2005
2006-04-19 - rehashing the past
2006-04-19 - -
2006-04-17 - i'll wachovia
2006-04-14 - and i think thats ok
2006-04-11 - i am figuring things out
2006-04-07 - canker baby bane
2006-04-05 - im not writing iggy; shoot me in the neck
2006-04-05 - all i can think about is gargling with salt water. but i dont really think that would help.
2006-04-05 - i forgot titus
2006-04-05 - hommes + filles
2006-03-30 - dear god
2006-03-29 - blah blah my day
2006-03-29 - the circus is in town!
2006-03-29 - he used to draw me naked and it surprised me that i wasnt nervous
2006-03-29 - a picture of a 16 year old girl with raised arms
2006-03-29 - dear god (i talk to god on the internet)
2006-03-29 - sister price
2006-03-28 - 20s still a baby mom, i promise
2006-03-28 - too young to not be included
2006-03-22 - i cant even crack a smile
2006-03-22 - these are my favorite picture books
2006-03-22 - i remember feeling this sad and it makes me feel dumb for feeling it
2006-03-18 - you are a working man, and i am a vacuuming girl, playing dress up and thinking of you
2006-03-18 - we read voltaire and dance on the bones of the dead
2006-03-17 - she pretty she someone
2006-03-17 - maegan finley micheal turns 14?
2006-03-17 - jelli belli
2006-03-17 - holy triangle
2006-03-17 - sweet smell, heat smell
2006-03-17 - its such a trade off
2006-03-17 - death from above, 2006
2006-03-17 - holy roman i love this, even if i dont believe it
2006-03-17 - fuck breaking dates with me
2006-03-17 - i am so bad at typing
2006-03-16 - dear kellan
2006-03-16 - DC drooling
2006-03-15 - -
2006-03-14 - george clooney swoony
2006-03-13 - jane eyre
2006-03-13 - q & a
2006-03-13 - chin-nose lips-mouth
2006-03-09 - every other temperamental minute
2006-03-09 - -
2006-03-09 - gigive up the ghost
2006-03-08 - repost from archived automatos
2006-03-07 - release date four a potter
2006-03-06 - the baby's consumptive
2006-03-06 - yeah you can't marriage pants!
2006-03-06 - and iggy, sweet iggy, hates my mousey guts
2006-03-06 - my initials are CAT christopher almond. uber-kit baby, i feel your pain
2006-03-06 - jean-bag jacqueline!
2006-03-06 - stitches or staples?
2006-03-02 - everyone i know has told me a story about when they were naked
2006-03-02 - slippery slope
2006-03-02 - dear god, im lost again
2006-03-02 - voyeur
2006-03-02 - william howard taft
2006-03-02 - ash wednesday
2006-03-02 - my diary is shallow/sallow
2006-03-02 - tickle me pink, color me pink
2006-03-02 - thoughts to share with the girlfriends i dont have
2006-03-01 - people with pet names/pets with people names
2006-03-01 - i changed my mind
2006-03-01 - i am itching for a mitching
2006-03-01 - sleep is a needle
2006-03-01 - i am your grandmother; an old woman at 20
2006-02-28 - i pretty much live with quinn
2006-02-28 - oh so emo like jon troutmar i love you
2006-02-28 - i'm not that worse for the wear
2006-02-25 - i told the gorbutts my new years resolution was to double my body weight. i figured i would need to take in about 5000 calories a day.
2006-02-25 - i feel like a fatty who looks like a skinny
2006-02-25 - a pigfaced prussian angel
2006-02-25 - i am bad at being a girlfriend
2006-02-23 - frenchie frenchie
2006-02-22 - this is not iggy pop
2006-02-21 - dear chris allman
2006-02-21 - i think its hiding from it
2006-02-21 - out too late with a broken boy
2006-02-21 - -
2006-02-15 - hhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrtttttttttt
2006-02-13 - m knows e knows
2006-02-09 - everybody nobody
2006-02-08 - feb 14 timeline
2006-02-07 - dear BORF
2006-02-07 - sandy skoglund
2006-02-07 - this entry is for me, a backup of todays pertinent and not so pertinent thoughts
2006-02-07 - yesterday when i was sick
2006-02-07 - -
2006-02-07 - we couldnt sleep in the graveyard
2006-02-02 - my boss, leni,
2006-02-01 - you smell good clean, you look good dirty
2006-01-31 - i just got an email from nello marconi
2006-01-31 - -
2006-01-31 - my stomach hurts
2006-01-30 - he said he would
2006-01-27 - springfield va's own \"q ball\"
2006-01-27 - i love it when you call me
2006-01-25 - -
2006-01-25 - he called this a city of magnificent intentions
2006-01-24 - 5 confessions of a first world fuck
2006-01-23 - even the playing field
2006-01-23 - sabine machine
2006-01-18 - i memorized this
2006-01-18 - i have cried more times this week than i have eaten
2006-01-05 - stanley kunitz
2006-01-03 - two thousand and 6
2006-01-03 - -
2006-01-03 - rated PG-13
2006-01-03 - sticky hands and sticky hearts
2005-12-31 - you will not read this unless you like me; either way its not worth it
2005-12-31 - a red dress
2005-12-31 - my mom said
2005-12-31 - words are just words
2005-12-31 - alma 5
2005-12-27 - terse tense tetchy
2005-12-26 - string bean jean
2005-12-26 - today i want to be claire huxtable
2005-12-25 - quinn i wrote this in my journal about you a month or so ago
2005-12-25 - sarcasm is a sign of people who are weak
2005-12-23 - dear god
2005-12-23 - i am kissing a robot
2005-12-15 - sex as a science/computer game erotica
2005-12-15 - san francisco's own church of st. john coltrane
2005-12-12 - cristal champagne/crystal girl
2005-12-12 - when i hit this level of low its scary
2005-12-12 - -
2005-12-10 - i just ran into jase. he said \"hey frazzle razzle dazzle\"
2005-12-09 - my bishop said even a barn needs to be painted. does makeup make you want me?
2005-12-09 - this is as close to my heart as i can take you
2005-12-09 - dollbaby photo photo
2005-12-09 - i have mystical visions and cosmic vibrations
2005-12-08 - -
2005-12-08 - jaco pastorius
2005-12-08 - raw or refined
2005-12-07 - a rose is a rose
2005-12-06 - chris allman said this to me, but i like to pretend god did.
2005-12-05 - a fish in the mirror, a groan in the belly
2005-12-05 - i think i am about to find out
2005-12-05 - this shouldnt depress you. its just a joke.
2005-12-03 - i think it is lonely to know better
2005-12-03 - dear god (i talk to god on the internet),
2005-12-01 - a to b to c to d
2005-11-30 - last night i had
2005-11-27 - tell that bastard the wars not over
2005-11-27 - venus of willendorf
2005-11-27 - i love eating seeds
2005-11-25 - all she wanted was a room somewhere
2005-11-22 - head head head computer
2005-11-22 - you don't deserve to be lonely
2005-11-21 - fuck shit damn objectification
2005-11-21 - nothing god created pleases and repulses me like hair
2005-11-19 - when is whatever i want ok?
2005-11-19 - chris allman said one thing that makes you and quinn a good couple is that you both like to swear
2005-11-19 - jason said i was rough around the edges
2005-11-15 - americano
2005-11-14 - coming clean
2005-11-12 - -