Red Rot ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- holy shit How does the universe keep doing this to me? I can't be the bigger person. I don't know how to be the bigger person. I don't even feel like a person anymore. I don't know how to be happy when good things happen to you. I can imagine being happy in an alternate universe where you are still my husband and you feel like my husband, but I can't feel anything happy or normal now. Everything is foothills of emptiness and absolutely devastating shit and I wonder how long until it stops hurting and if this is what abuse always feels like 12:32 a.m. - 2012-09-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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